Aww.
I'm really sorry to hear that (((HUGS))) I know that feeling all to well. Because, unfortunately, it's now an everyday occurrence,& everything let of getting worse.Usually, for no apparent reason. I wouldn't go more into depth about my Depression here. Because of so many reasons. Plus, I'm trying to eliminate myself from talking about it all together.
Do you currently see anyone right now? If not, I really encourage you to get help and tell someone. Good luck!
Depression sucks,& that's just what it does. Tricks us.Makes us feel miserable, when our lives are otherwise ok. But, it's not my fault, nor is it your fault.
((((HUGS)))) I'm really sorry your going through. I've been there so many times, if ever need to PM anyone,I'm open.