i got it! im still in shock. i dont want to dump my entire life story here but im still not happy, to say the least. to put it bluntly, for the last 5 years my life has been one unfortunate event after another. every time i think its going up again, it fails or something bad happens immediately. iv lost 3 jobs, lost my home, lost friends, lost family, deaths in my family, lost everything i own, and every time i start to climb back up again, the cliff crumbles under me
trying really hard to be optimistic about this job that its a permanent thing and that things are finally lookign up, but its hard. im going to just do what i can, which is to do my best, and hope for the best.
thank you everyone for your support.